The Damages Your Perfection Caused.

There are people for whom you change, and then there are people for whom you refuse to change. Maybe being the decent enough isn't always the best thing to do. To give it back to the rough ones is one way of dealing stress, or maybe how most of us prefer to. No... People like us don't have anger issues. We have the urge to stand up for the right we have always been shut down for. Do you how annoying it is to be shut down by your parents, sibling, cousins, and relatives and as well by your friends? Well not anymore. I have changed for good but now they have decided that they want to see the worst side of me and I was done underestimating myself. It was high time to come out of cage, the barriers everyone had set for me and finally be able to open up and speak out. But I was scared about one thing, what if no one takes me seriously? What if people start hating just like the way you did and still do? Now you see what had you done to me? In your attempts to make me the perfect one and in order to mold me in your perfect way you had made me feel what exactly it was like to be the one who was not perfect. Did you realize that when in the process while you were trying to change me or expecting for me to change you had instantly make me doubt myself with every step that I would take? So when you were trying to mold me, change me, "perfectolize" me, make me what you would prefer, you had completely wrecked me. I am sure you didn’t see that coming did you? And how could you? You were so busy to fix the damages that you had, in ME that you never thought something like this could even happen. I screamed and cried for days when you ignored me with that shitty attitude of yours while you gave importance to yourself and ignored my apologies and to notice the amount of change I brought to myself because of the rejection you had given.

The only message I try to give here is that not everyone is perfect. If you are ignoring someone for some certain flaws that they have, remember one thing that they have adored you even though you had the dirtiest scars which they never tried to change. You cannot make someone your symbol of perfect. You cannot have someone made what YOU want to see in them.

For those people who have been trying to change for someone, stop it. You know your flaws and you should know what’s right according to you and what is not. Don’t let other’s decisions make you cry and beg for their attention. If someone really considers you, they will put up to your flaws and later will silently help you overcome and grow, not change them.

Make sure, with every step you are growing and not changing… Be yourself not someone else.

-Priya Mistry.

31^st March 2015.